Who ThE RuDDy HeLL CaN SaVe Me?

hahaz. not a good title i can think of. anyhow write. doesnt matter anywayz... dun give a damn. i dun want to give a damn. i dun want to bother... what i want is simple... a peaceful life... thats all. i dun even need love relationships... maybe i havent reached the state whereby i totally gave up... thats why its so pain. but that doesnt mean that by totally giving up, there'll be no pain. no. there'll still be. its like ma mu le... whatever... no one will understand... no one will understand how it feels to feel nothing... no one will understand how i'm feeling now... totally hopeless helpless... not knowing what i'm doing... cant think... the best is, i dun even know who am i... i'm not sure. i dunno. everybody refused to tell me. no one tells me whats happening. hatred. blood. i've experienced. torture. i want to give up. but now i understand how gor feels... i cant give up. no one allows me to. i cant stop. i cant rest. i cant even have the chance to cry. to scream. this world... haha. i'll juz have to continue, until i fall. until one day, i juz fall dead. and no one will know me. no one will remember me. i'm really tired... i dun want to know anything... i dun want to face anything... i agree with one saying...that imaginations are complicated, facing reality aren't that difficult. but i only agree with the front part. this world... to hard to believe. to trust. there's no love. only fakes. deceiving is everybody's hobby. this world is ugly.. i juz want to leave this place. i really want to leave this place. i want to go somewhere no one knows me. a place whereby i'm carefree. what do i care and what do i not? told you, i dunno who am i. dunno what i'm doing... dunno whats happening. no one will know how much it hurts... no one will understand. everybody...leave me... dun bother... i'm a no one. i'm someone who doesnt know anything... i'm someone who cant feel a thing. no one will understand. and no one can save me. i'll juz continue until i fall dead. no one will know...that the pain's suffocating me... i really.... cant remember the past, i have no memories...what are they? who can tell me? i cant feel the present. so can anyone tell me whats happening around me now? i cant see the future. there's no need for a fortune teller. tell you. this world is a freak. i hate... everything, everybody... i want to leave.... i really do...