WhaTs TheRe To WisH FoR???

in this world....there really isnt love. no matter how hard i tried, i'm still invisible.. to eveyone. to gor, to everybody....and to wei shan. invisible people stays invisible forever. no use trying. fated... wei shan, i know that maybe you feel that we dun like you or are leaving you out, but have you really think it through thoroughly? you say no one cares. you din see me. cause im invisible. i dun need or want you to care for me, or even see me. but at least i hope you will think and feel that i care. i dun want to force you either. but i really want to care for you and you dun even give me the chance to. you said no one understands, but if you dun even let anyone know, how will you know if they wouldnt understand? i tried. tried in everything. gave my best shot. tried hard. but all i want is everyone to be happy. to be fortunate. even if they dun see me. even if i am hurt. i dun care. but i want everyone to be happy. why? why cant you even help me in that? yeah true...being happy isnt easy...or should i say its impossible to me. i'm in pain. and tired of this world. this world is complicated. impossible to know or understand. full of betrayers and fakers...hell..you would never know....i'm really tired....too tired to carry on... but i cant rest also. juz continue until i fall... i do everything as you say. even if i din want to... today going to watch the grudge 2...you din know actually how scared i am... i know its going to be very scary...maybe i juz close my eyes... but i will turn up. because you wanted to watch. even if i dun even think im in the wrong, i said sorry to you. trying my best to cheer you up, let you be happy. but you juz din want. you juz din want to help me. i'm really tired....tired from everything... sometimes i juz wanna lie in bed and sleep....forever...but even my sleep are never peaceful. the dreams are disturbing me.... i cant rest. and i'm really tired lerhx....dunno when i'll juz fall...and never be able to stand up...too weak...no strength....and guess it'll be soon bahx...because no one sees me, it doesnt bother anymore... cause no one will even know...i give up...i give up trying to know this world. i give up in my dreams and ambitions....i give up in everything... i dun fit in anywhere.... and no one knows...