WeLL, WhaT Is LoGiC???

whats logic? maybe there isnt such thing called logic bahx... as days, months, years passed by, i see no logic in this world anymore. logic has vanished. logic, trueness, love, care, concern....all good things that you can list. they have all disappeared. vanished into thin air. there isnt any in the owrld anymore. all are fakes. lies, selfishness, betrays, hatred, kill, blood....those are the things that are in this world now. beautiful aint it? all the bad things....this world... how i wish it really come to an end... soon... muahaha. mabel... i want to forgive and forget... i want to reaccept her... trying hard to... improving le bahx? hahaz. jie is right... the art to forgive... hahaz. but the hurt remains... forever. in my heart. why? when i finally got the slightest bit the hope for this world cause i tried forgiving mabel, you muz destroy it? fakers... liers... betrayers... realised mabel is better than you a million times... how can you? when i saw you in tm, my first feeling was scared instead of excited and happy. too scared to call you. i knew you changed. but i didnt expect you to become like that. what made you become like that? why muz youtreat me and monica like that? how cruel are you? i trusted you so much. listed you as my forever best fren. a special place that not everyone can be placed in my heart. yet you... how can you? no hope left. whats left is still only hatred. hatred to this world. there's no love. all are fakes. pain and hurt...there's nothing i can do. i'm standing at the same spot. not moving at all. gave up...really...i'm really very tired...no strengths to continue. to think.to help. to do things. to remember. no one will understand...its too difficult. this world...too difficult to know...to understand... my brain stopped working. but my heart is aching every minute... every second... too pain that i dun even know why i am hurt... i forget, but the pain gets stronger...it doesnt heal. it doesnt get better. and i gave up trying to get better... it gets worse. more pain as minutes and seconds pass by... whats the point? i really dun remember why i am hurt. why i feel pain. why...... i cant remember a thing...thats nothing good. cause the pain's still there... it will forever be there..heck. dun care bout anything le... i have no energy to care anywayz... i'm juz a body without a soul... who am i? hahaz. i dunno... i really cant remember whats hurting me...what i've gone through...whats happened. the pain... is suffocating me..i cant breathe... i hate... hatred has covered me. pain and hurt have taken my whole heart... believe...thats what i always tell others... but do i believe? i never did. maybe once i did. but not now. and never am i going to le. dun intend to at least. not going to rely on anyone... i dun want to rely anymore.... I HATE LIFE!!!!!!!!!! IT SUCKS!!!!! whats happenning? whats happened? i dunno. i cant remember. how nice... i cant remember. cant think far...im useless. idiot. saying the same things cause i cant think further anymore... no one can help me. and no one shall. whee~ i love pain