GiVe Me A BreaK

life..
happenings..
hatred..
love..
pain..
happiness..
people..
etc etc..
funny, do you think i know what is going on?
no i dont
too bad for me isnt it?
dun have to pity me, cause i'm an idiot also
my home: hell
i juz feel so out of everything
like i'm not in this world
sometimes i really feel like asking someone:
am i dead or alive?
why do i feel so dead?
feel like asking someone to kill me
finish me off
why....
things going around in my head
mind too screwed
feel like clearing everything
zzz
i really hate everything..
so tired..
maybe i'll juz disappear like that someday?
you wont blame me right?
i've really tried my best alr...
my apologies..
maybe that time, i really should have consulted the psychologist
ask him or her whats wrong with me
please...someone take me away..
why is it that i cant even rest well?
in my dreams..they are so disturbed
crying...
can i be alone?
can i sleep forever?
how to continue with my life?...
i really have no idea..
i don't know how..
so juz take me away
anyway i have long accepted the fact that i will never recover
i want to leave
thats my decision