HaiZz ShouLd I ForGiVe HiM???

damn.... should i forgive him? haizz... sometimes i dunno why but i cant feel angry with him. and sometimes i feel that angry... no matter what he hurt me so deeply... why should i forgive him? he some sort betrayed me... why should i forgive him? yet i really cant bear not to... i seem to feel like forgiving him... if i forgive him, maybe we'll be nothing after that... so what'll my heart decide? should i? haizz... he keep asking me to forgive him... mabel keep asking me whether i'm alright and whether this will affect our friendship...truthfully i really dunno... though i can sms and talk to her on the phone, i dun feel like meeting or seeing her... not for the time being bahx... no matter what i still need time to recover... but why is this taking so long? it shouldnt be like that... i usually can recover very fast de... why did i let him into my life? why did i let him affect me? affect my mood and everything... my brain is going to burst... haizz... i'm already feeling very tired le...yet still got this thing to bother me... haizz... why muz be like this? yesterday i skipped choir.. really dun feel like going...feeling damn tired.... and also i dun wanna see mabel... and she and him thinks that i din go choir because of this. well, its true... but the time i also really feeling damn tired... after that went out with gor and hui ying jie... but because i'm too tired to do anything or even talk, they keep talking, scared i bored or sianz... hahaz... sorry. and gor bought coke fer me in burger king...i dun like ppl to treat me derhx... so i refused to drink...but thinking that it'll be a waste if i dun drink cause gor and hui ying jie already sharing one big coke lerhx...so i had to drink... then we went marine parade k box... i know they go because of me... they know i love singing... thanks... gor going broke... the k box plus buffet de so expensive... but because i never eat before that kind of food, i didnt eat... sorry again... thanks for everything...gor and hui ying jie... not i dun like everything or i'm unhappy... juz really tired and bothered... sorry and thanks... haizz... haizz... back to him... why should i let him affect me?!?! if he didnt appear in my life, i would be the same... and i dun care... why.......... now i cant concentrate in everything i do... who am i? truthfully i still dunno... but dun worry... im still as pathetic as ever... the previous posts... still the same... no worries... muahahaha... pain, hurt and hatred... beautiful life aint it? hahaz of course~ gor and hui ying jie, hope you all are well... love you all!!!