Is This Really Part Of Growing UP?

tell me, what should i do?
is this really part of growing up?
i really dunno how to continue
i'm sorry...
crying is addictive
you never taught me how..
before you left..
why?..
should i look for you?
what i want is really simple too..
i give up..
i'm really sorry..
thanks for everything

Life Seriously Sux

i really dunno how to continue anymore
what to do?
depend or not depend
go on or stop
give up or continue
i totally have no idea anymore
whats happening?
i really dunno
it sux
i hate myself
why am i in this world?
i have dreams, like everyone of you
but i have no choice at all
why?
why do ppl waste away their ability to by happy?
why cant they make full use of it?
dun they understand?
how it feels to be me
how it feels to lose that ability
they dont know
they dont understand...
how to continue?
what am i?
who am i?
i dun belong here at all....
please, stop everything..
why muz everyone leave me?
why muz they lie to me?
i hate it...
why do you see things faster than me?
how did you know i will become like that?
why do you understand me more than myself?
i cant take it anymore...
i'm really tired..
let me go
take me away please...
i will be most grateful...

I WanT To DiE....

sometimes, my wish is to die
no choice le...
i'm not like others.
no matter what i do,
i juz cant feel happy
i've long lost the ability.
who cares?
nobody does.
not even myself.
i dun even know what the hell am i thinking alr.
everything is juz so wrong.
am i living or dead?
i don't know.
i juz want to die..
i seem to be in this world
but yet i feel like i'm in a faraway land
nobody knows me
neither do i know anyone
i've really landed up in the wrong place
i dun belong here.
it hurts too much
i'm a nobody
i dunno who i am
i juz want to leave this place...
someone please take me away..
why do i feel like everyone is leaving me
all the better..
leave me..