HaIzz FaLLInG SooN LeRhx...

haizz two times liaoz! two times i typed so much in the end POOP! last time is cannot load properly then no mood to type again... Now is computer crash! Dammit! Life is so beautiful full of hatred! haizz everyone thinks that i should not have so much troubles and hatred since im so young.... But is this so??? i dun think so.... Gor thinks i am dan chun and i hated people saying that..... But now i realised how wonderful it is to be dan chun.... At least you would be happy and not think so much.... How nice it is.... Ting why wont you ever get what we trying to tell you? why you juz HAVE TO make us worry for you and you give us that kind of attitude? You are really spoilt and HOPELESS..... After so many things, you can still patch up with him...... man i really dunno what you are thinking....... how can you.....??? It hurts me not only that you have been so stupid to patch up with him, and also that you didnt even bother to tell me anything.... But... Who am i to you that you have to tell me anywayz? haizz.... I am turing to someone i dun even know... Who exactly am i? Even Mei Wah these two words seem to decent to me now..... My temper, attitude and everything.... THEY ARE NOT MINE!!! what happened to me? I really dunno anymore.... Maybe one day i might go crazy...... I love homework, i love to be busy.... So i wont think bout anything..... I hate everyone.... I hate this whole world! But the most i hate is myself! Im a complete idiot! When i need someone to be there, no one is..... I shouldn blame anyone.... IS me who made myself become like that....... OR? that bitch? She is a bitch and slut no wrong.... She made me become like that.... And now that my visions are all fake and have no feelings for anything. She made me hate everything! She is the culprit of my sickness! She will get her retribution one day...... She will lose everything one day like she made me lose mine! I have no more strength to do anything.... No more strength to face her and i hate seeing her face! Think she so pretty oh my! PUKE~~ Disgusting wonder why brandon likes her.... Muz be even blind than me...... He will realise her true colours one day and regret his decision! She doesnt deserve all what she got now..... juz the sight of her makes me wanna vomit moreever her actions..... I am now not me....DO NOT BLAME ME!

aRe aLL DesTiNaTeD?

Same... All the days are the same for me... No differnce, all so dull and boring... Life is all the same... Meaningless... Lame.... Why would i end up with such lousy PSLE grades and go into this idiotic school and meet idiotic people? Why would i meet Mabel this bitch and can tolerate her until this day? Why? Why are there so many whys and questions in this world? WHY??? I have no feelings for anything now... My visions are so fake that it is faker than in dreams... Will anyone understand??? No... No one will... They wouldnt even care... I really dunno how long i can stand... Maybe one day i will juz fall and collapsed on the ground... I really have no more strength to continue... I too have dreams which i wish it will come true one day... But its too far... I really want to cry... But it never succeeds.... I really have no more strength.... I'm feeling real weak to even fake a smile... Life is so meaningless that nothing can make me really smile from the bottom of my heart.... Nothing.... Long time didnt contact with gor le dunno how is he doing... Should be the same bahx him? Playing his games hoping that he can forget everything, killing time.... Like that everyday...... Haizz...... Results for this mid year are not bad..... I am contented already...... Juz hate this damned stupid life..... haizz... Sick of it....