really no one can understand how i feel?
no one can save me from this agony?
no one can take away my pain?
it hurts so much...
to think of you,
to miss you so much.
its stupid, its silly.
i dont want to be like this actually.
i need to make this decision.
the decision whether to continue
or to stop loving you.

have been really stressed recently
due to the amount of work to do.
studies, HSSSC, soka...
if it wasnt for soka, i would have given up,
really...
now learning to relax and reduce stress
but i am getting slack =X

i still feel alone at times
but its better
really fortunate to have si yi
its such a wonderful destiny to have her
i must have really good fortune to met someone like her.
and also my other TPSD-ians who cared for me,
gave my encouragements.
well well, here i go again.
hahaha

gave up trying to tell ppl abt how i feel.
gave up hoping anyone will know how i feel.
but, i can overcome all these.
just, i really miss you.
no idea how to let go...
cant bear to let go either..
where are you?
what are you doing now?
are you doing fine?
really hope that you are doing well.
maybe you can move on better without me...
do you still think of me?
still miss me?
sigh...