alright...
recently yeah,
many things happened
was seriously confused..
i know i cant forget YOU
though its VERY VERY irritating
i hate it..
but i miss the days with you
though you never cared.
cause it doesnt mean anything to you
i'm nothing to you.
i only hoped to be good frens.
is that too much to hope for?
but...
since you're happy,
i shall be contented.
may happiness follow you=)
it hurts me to think of you.
but its time for me to forget and move on.
i promised myself,
after this, i will not like anyone anymore
i dun want to.
its tiring..
told myself:
after i graduate,
i shall start anew.
fresh
a new life
without ppl i dun like
without ppl who hurts me
without many many...
wounds might heal one day,
but scars remain
and the scars might become wounds again.
i had to,
appear as if i'm alright,
even though my heart is crying
doesnt matter already...
cause i'm used to it..
these days somehow i'm glad to have o levels
to distract me from whatever that is happening/happened
no one knows and understands me
i realised that long ago
why?
i dont really know.
ppl that i treasure and love
i am nothing much to them
are humans that strange?
we search for things that are so far away
but we juz cant see those that are right in front of us
the scars have been left behind
something i cant forget
and i'm not sure if i can get over it
scared....
i'm really scared..
helpless cause there's nothing i can do
can there not be life?
can i juz dont face anyone?
i want peace.
i dont want to bother much
i'm tired....
exhausted...
worn out...
no one to save me...as usual
i'm reaching out into thin air
or vacuum?
i dont seem to understand anymore.
yeah..this world.
too freaky
too scary
too tiring to try and comprehend
Gor, i've never forgotten you
cause you're important to me too.
guess you never realised or known that.
huiying jie...you too
karkoon, knowing you is something very amazing
we wouldnt have known each other at all
yet we met.
became good frens
but we're rather different in characters
and maybe i'm wrong but i've always felt that
you treat me differently from others.
i dont know why.
anywayz, thanks for all the encouragement
and being with me all these while.
love and hatred are separated by a slight margin
be careful not to step into the wrong one
i have stepped into it
life full of hatred.
full of unhappiness
i lost myself.
and now its so difficult to find back
juz plainly living each day off anyhow
thats not what i want it to be
but somehow,
thats the only thing i can do
its already a good achievement
for me to hide my unhappiness
and appear to be happy
really...it really isnt easy..
i stopped trusting
stopped relying on anyone
cause i didnt want to
and couldnt
things that have happened.
i dont want it to repeat.
i dont want to think about it
thats the only way to escape..
forgive me...
i'm sorry..
gomenasai...
