Really- No One Understands

you really think i am that happy?
out of all my frens,
you knew most of my things
yet it seemed like you dun understand
of course,
cause you know only a little too
really, no one understands
a life full of only sadness
pathetic
hatred
i really hate everything in this world
i hate myself even more
what life is that?
i dun want to continue my life at all
i dun want it to continue
i want to end everything
i cant stand it anymore
i cant bear with it anymore
i'm falling
i cant smile or laugh much anymore
though all are fakes
now i cant even fake them
crying everyday
no one will understand
sad life

Why? How long can i stand?

sometimes i really wonder
why am i doing so much
for those who dun bother
why am i making myself so tired
for they dun even care
my world is closing in
enough
i will suffocate...
why torture me?
i have no frens
they are not my frens
no one is
for i have only myself
to cry alone everyday
facing pain and upsetness every second
of my life
i've long forgotten what happiness is
forgive me, i' really sorry
but i really need a break
a break from anything
let me go....
how many tears i've shed
how tired i feel
with no one who bothers
walking alone in darkness
i understand, what Naruto and Gaara feels
the thing that differs them from others
the loneliness
the pain
the hatred
i really hate this whole world now
but the person i hate most is the one typing away now
the one who created this diary
i want everyone to be happy
to help me by being happy
to feel happiness,
something that i cant even hope to feel
why nt treasure?
why nt love everything you have?
instead of grumbling away
how long can i stand?
how much more can i move?
nth matters to me now
whatever...
tears of loneliness
tears of upset
tears of unhappiness
tears that i shed,
even it tastes wierd
whats my purpose of living?
no idea
juz
A Life Of Hatred
hatred left...