what a real sickening life is?
who wanna know?
dun try, cause you'll get freaked out
my life=sickening life
facing so many things
without anyone understanding
no one helping
no one listening to me
no one having the slightest patience
no one to trust
isnt that nice?
life juz gets worse and worse for me
uncertainity
facing so many things
mabel still makes my life miserable as usual
i'm already left with nothing...
why does she still want to take away everything from me?
i'm tired enough...
running for the presidency for student council
knowing its impossible to get it
have to face mabel again
making me stressed and feel small
screwed life
my life is juz in a mess
koon hiang....got the chairman post in choir
can see she's stressed by mabel also
sigh
too many things that i cant remember
haven recovered...wanna give up
can feel my head going to explode...
wanna dig my heart out
it hurts....it really does
someone please kill me...
i really dunno who i am
why i'm living
what i am living for
let me leave this place
this place where i dun belong
freaking tired..
four teachers asking whats wrong with me
i have no idea either
really
thats why its so sickening
too many things....
really miserable and pathetic
unsecure
i really seem like a dead person
dots
not living...
dead!!!
muahahaha!!
everyone are liars...
break their promises
no one can be trusted
heck everything
living like a dead person
dun try being me
never try it
you'll regret
a life full of hatred and sorrows
interesting isnt it?
hahaz
whatever
gor....miss you alot
but always dunno what to talk to you
you told me to laugh at the little things we have
you told me to laugh more in the day
even if i break down after that
i tried
sometimes i did it
i really did it
and sometimes i really cant
you said it will feel tired
and thats why its so difficult
yes....i'm really tired...
but i succeeded sometimes
manages to laugh and go crazy in the day
even though deep inside i'm really tired and hurt
i did it
but right after that,
i broke down
everytime
this is my life....
can i juz end it?
can i not continue?
can i end everything?
what am i working so hard for?
i really have no idea...
tell me, what have i done to deserve all these?
am i wrong?
sinful?
tell me...
if not, juz kill me
stab me through my heart
its easier
everyone is juz so fake...
so am i
hatred...i hate everyone
but i hate myself most
disgusting freaking idiot=me
i want to lose all my memories
anywayz there aren't any nice memories for me to remember
so might as well forget everything
let me leave this world
no one will bother or notice anywayz
who is mei wah?
no one knows
hahaz its nice
i'm loving it
hohoho
for someone who dunno who she is,
what she's thinking,
what she's doing,
whats happening,
etc etc,
she might at well dun exist isnt it?
only contributing to more carbon dioxide
and excess CO2 might lead to global warming
no one tells me whats going on
not even joel want to tell me
who am i??????
tired and sick of this life
KILL ME!!!
MUAHAHAHA!!!!
