ALL aRe FaKe

Love is fake. There is no real love in this world. All the sweet talkings and everything are all fake. They are juz to decieve us and make us love them them. And when they leaves us, they will have all kinds of excuses.... Blaming us and saying they are not in the wrong. They juz stopped loving us so they abandon us. Whats so great about love? Dun get deceived. I will never believe in love again. All fakes. These days something wrong with me... I am always tired and sleepy when i slept so much and i cant focus on anything... I cant remember anything i memorised for tests and exams and i cant seem to think... Haizz... Why does Lao Tian Ye give me so many tests... I haven passed that and another one comes out. I cant stand it... I really cant stand it le... No one is and will be there for me... I know that and i have to face everything myself... I can feel nothing now... So it wouldnt hurt much but i rather i have feelings... I want to feel the things around me... But i cant now... I want to be hurt... There is no way for me... I have been running away from things.... I have always been.... I thought i am facing them... I taught people to face realitys but i myself dun... In the end i am so hurt... Shang hen lei lei... Haizz... Why is it so difficult to live in this world? Why is this world so confusing? I myself want love too... But i hate it too... I want others to believe but i dun.... Believing is a kind of blessing too... But i dun... I dun beleive in anyone, anything, especially love... I have only hate now... Hatred...